It's 11:36 pm right now and I should be getting some sleep, instead I've got the same damned thing running around in my head that's been running around in my head for the last 4 nights. I can't figure out why she's even back in my mind. I haven't talked to her, haven't thought of her in ages. Do I just wonder how she's doing? Is there something left unfinished or unsaid between the two of us? Why is she constantly sneaking her way into my mind recently? Am I unhappy and she made me happy? Or did I make the mistake of letting go of her many years ago and regret it somehow, and only now it manifests itself?
Why.... why do I think of trying to call her, accidentally run into her at work, why do I need to see her face again?
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I was going to say that it is too early for me to be thinking about riddles, but I see you were up late. It sounds you have been having a "What might have been" thoughts going through your head
You're probably just in a reflective frame of mind lately and wonder, as Shelly said, what might have been. Not a big deal as long as you don't act on it. We all have fantasies from time to time - I think it's relatively natural.
It happens, Brandon, and as KaeEll said, it's perfectly natural. Sometimes memories of people we haven't though about in years can surface again, out of the blue.
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My only concern was like, I couldn't shake it. Like it's still popping up even throughout the day. And it's not like I want to run off with her or anything, it's just, why are you in my head and why aren't you going away.
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It's hard to say, Brandon, but sometimes when we're upset about one thing (job/personal), we can begin to think that a totally unrelated thing might make it all better. When actually played out, those solutions usually don't work, but can often make things worse!
You've been stressed at work a lot lately, so perhaps a fantasy about things past is a conveniently happy outlet for you. Don't go there! Without prying into more personal matters (and every couple has occasional "issues" arise), that's about the best advice that I can offer you right now. If there's anything else that's causing you stress, you should face it head-on, and begin addressing ways to improve the situation. Otherwise, the past will continue to pop up.
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"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities"
(Dumbledore to Harry Potter)
You're a smart lady there Moore. Sure you didn't get a degree in psychology? LOL. I'm not worried about so much today as I was last night when I couldn't sleep because of it.
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Moore's right about facing something head on. I've also learned that simple changes in routine behaviour can make a difference when we go into thought loops. Change the driving route, go to a movie, walk to lunch, style your hair, grow something, cut something, any little thing. It's really quite remarkable how simple changes can multiply into a whole new path of thinking. It's called behavioural conditioning, and it does work.
Brandon, KaeEll and I have each raised three children into adulthood, and have also been on the planet a little longer than you have -- especially if you want to combine our years! Psychology degrees aren't even necessary anymore. LOL...
We're always here for ya, and only want to help. You're a smart guy, and I'm sure that you already know whatever is causing you to have these, um, episodes needs to be addressed. You'll be happier for having done so!
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"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities"
(Dumbledore to Harry Potter)
Hey, life has its cycles of being happy, and being unhappy. When we're unhappy, it's part of our human survival instinct to try to make ourselves happy again, and sometimes we look for that happiness in bizarre places. It's a little like grasping at straws!
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"It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities"
(Dumbledore to Harry Potter)
I just reconnected with a friend from college on Facebook. One that was I deeply in love with back in the day, and I like to think vice versa. We had fun, flirted, played dirty strip card games, but never did the deed, or became a romantic partnership. We had such an amazing friendship that I never wanted to lose it to a hellish breakup or anything like that. I've been wondering "what might have been" a lot recently,and I suddenly find him on facebook. He's married, with a BEAUTIFUL little girl now, and my feelings for him now are not the same, but still...it's nice to have a little fantasy about what might have been.
